I’ve never been the skinny girl, the really fit girl or even the outrageously beautiful and confident girl. At least that’s what i told myself. Time and time again I would allow my own self esteem be shaped by those around me. My hips aren’t as small as hers, my breasts arent as perky as hers, oh and my all time favorite ; my stomach isn’t as flat as hers. We live in a world of comparison, chasing one unattainable goal after another.
Having this mindset hindered me for so many years. I grew up playing sports as a child and throughout high school, had parents who were active and loved the outdoors. Had friends who had healthy habits that I was fortunate enough to pick up on over the years, but none of that mattered. It didn’t matter not because it wasn’t important, but because my mindset was more important. I had an endless amount of support and “yeses” in my life but here I was consistently telling myself no.
“ You will never look like her.”
“You’re too tall.”
“You will never achieve your goals, so why don’t you just quit now.”
It was me, 100% my own doing. Comparing, prodding and poking at my imperfections. Wishing things were different yet not having the tools to make those wishes come true. Things finally changed for me in the spring of 2018. As cliché as it may sound a light switch just popped right on. Call me sleeping beauty because It was as if I had been asleep this whole time and one day just decided to wake the hell up. I began to embrace all the positive motivators in my life and stopped embracing the negative ones, including my own inner thoughts.
It all starts with your mindset, positive or negative it’s still a mindset. If you have a negative mindset chances are you are like me, and need to do some soul searching to determine the root of the issue. Because it isn’t just that you are unhappy with your appearance. We all have our own journey, our own motivators and our own weaknesses. This process allows you to not only mold the outside but dig deeper on the inside, and unmask all those hidden ambitions.
I’ve never been the person that people come to for fitness and health advice…but now I am.
““I’ve never been the skinny girl, the really fit girl, or even the outrageously beautiful girl. “”